Something borrowed, something blue.

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I’ve been considering loose structures for a regular blog.  I feel like having a loose structure would be easier to maintain than the current ‘when I’ve got something to say‘ approach.

Even if I don’t have much to say, a loose structure would provide me a nudge toward something, right?

But none of the loose structures I’ve imagined have inspired me.  For some reason, I keep coming back to “tell me your peach and pit” or “what are your top ten whatevers?”

The problems with a top ten list are obvious.

What if you can’t come up with ten items?

Sure, I know. You can change the number.  You can make the top ten list into a top three list. Or a top seven list.

Whatever.

But what if you can’t decide on the theme of the list?

Top movies, artists, comics, shows? Top favorite cuss words?  Top YouTube videos?  Anything can be communicated via the mechanism of a list, and yet I’d have to constantly make a decision about what subject matter today’s list would be.

That sounds like a lot of work.

So what about the “peach and the pit,” as the Kardashians say.

I’ve heard the concept conveyed in many ways…you know, reporting on the high and the low of your day.

What’s the rose of your day and what’s the thorn? Blah blah blah.

The problem I have with the recap of the highs and lows is that the exercise basically only works if you’re not too low.

I guess I’d have no problem telling my peach and pit if  I were a Kardashian.  I’m not saying Kardashians don’t have bad days. I’m sure they do.  But I’m guessing the basic Kardashian is light years ahead of me in terms of surviving a bad day with grace.

I might not mind a bad day so much in one of their houses with one of their fully-stocked kitchens and access to a private pool.  Plus, if you watch their shows, you know they get huge salads delivered every day.  I definitely wouldn’t mind bad days so much if I had big salads delivered.

But if your lows are really low, and you don’t have the fully stocked kitchen or huge salads or private pool to ease the pain, the recap is just depressing.

For me, living with depression, my lows are capable of really and truly sucking.

Luckily, I manage them well most of the time.

Sure I think about killing myself anytime I’m reminded of death, but I’m also able to distract myself from the thought.

I wish I was joking when I say I think about killing myself and then distract myself by looking at the CVS weekly deals.  It’s kind of funny if you don’t mind the first part of the sentence.

But mentions of death are a 100% trigger for me. Unfortunately.

Luckily, CVS weekly deals are pretty much a 100% guaranteed distraction!

Thank you, CVS!

P.S. If you ever need to know the CVS weekly deals and don’t feel like looking them up, just text or email me.

So highs and lows of my day?

Nah.

My official daily wellness plan rejects voluntarily considering lows.  It’s just not helpful for me.  It’s not soothing either.  AND it  could be a trigger given the right combination of circumstances.

But I still like the idea of a structure.

A basic, not-too-difficult-to-follow structure.

A structure that provides room for interpretation.

Then I thought about “Something old, something new…”

It’s kind of like a little rhyme-y checklist.

Here’s the actual meaning, according to The Knot:

This tradition comes from an Old English rhyme (“Something Olde, Something New, Something Borrowed, Something Blue, A Sixpence in your Shoe”), and the four objects that the bride adds to her wedding outfit or carries with her on the big day are just good luck charms. Don’t stress too much about them—they are the little tokens of love your mother, sister, other relatives, and attendants will give you at the eleventh hour (although you can give them to yourself, too). Something old represents continuity; something new offers optimism for the future; something borrowed symbolizes borrowed happiness; something blue stands for purity, love, and fidelity; and a sixpence in your shoe is a wish for good fortune and prosperity, although this remains largely a British custom.

So the rhyme is comforting. And using a structure of something old, something new, something borrowed, and something blue (SOSNSBSB) would nudge me to talk about continuity, optimism, happiness borrowed from others, and love.

That sounds good to me.

Here’s a SOSNSBSB mid-weekend short:

Something Old:

Yesterday I watched Steve Martin‘s Shopgirl for the billionth time.  While I was drawing cartoons, I needed something in the background that would feel familiar, not too stimulating and just the right amount of sad, poignant, hopeful and edgy.

Shopgirl was one of my favorite books and is one of my favorite movies.  I love the narrative and I love two of the three characters.

I think loving two of the three characters get it right.

Maybe I recognize the story and I definitely identify with the main character.

Oooh! And Shopgirl introduced me to The Volebeats!!!

So thank you, Steve Martin, for a really good and inspiring couple of hours.

Something New:

Well, now it will seem like all I do is watch movies and tv shows, which is kind of true. But my something new is actually a blend of old and new.  I spent the weekend (and am still) watching Seinfeld‘s Comedians in Cars Getting Coffee on Netflix.

I had watched Comedians before it was on Netflix and just discovered it on Netflix now that I have a Roku stick.

P.S. I love my Roku stick.

I am officially adding Comedians in Cars to my collection of stuff to watch while cartooning.  My collection is pretty small, actually.  It’s mostly Gilmore Girls, Ally McBeal, Beverly Hills 90210, Teen Mom and Melrose Place. I just watch these shows on loops.  Every few weeks I shift from one show to another.

The life of a cartoonist.

Fascinating.

Something Borrowed:

It’s hard to borrow things in this weather. Mostly I just hibernate in this weather.

But I had a visit from my sister-in-law Kakki whose amazing book on discipline is coming out this spring and was able to borrow some humor from Kristen Wiig for use in my convo with Kakki.

I am sorry to say that Kristen Wiig does not have her own website because if she had one, I would have perused it this afternoon and used it to delay getting other tasks accomplished.

But I did find the scene I almost acted out for Kakki.  I didn’t act it out as much as I described it.  It’s the airplane scene from Bridesmaids. Specifically, it’s the part where Kristen Wiig’s character Annie makes fun of Rose Byrne’s Helen. Right before she gets into it with the airline attendant Steve. Before she sees the Pilgrim woman on the wing of the plane. You know…….  Click here to watch it.

So I guess I borrowed some of Kristen Wiig’s humor and some of my sister-in-law’s happiness, which I tend to borrow since she usually tends to have extra.

Borrowing happiness is a good thing to do.  And it’s better than borrowing other things.

Something Blue:

With regard to blue, I’ll just say I’ve been paying attention to blue a lot lately.  I have about ten new blank canvasses that are ready for paint and my plan is to cover them with shades and layers and lines of bluish grays.  I like bluish grays and especially like to see them come to life on canvasses.

So blue may be a theme for this January, maybe longer.  I’ll try to share as much of the blue as I can, as I create it.

For now, I’ll just share my most recent painting, which has some gray.  It’s the last painting I finished.  She might look familiar since I’ve drawn her and painted her a few billion times now.

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Hope your weekend is going well and that your week ahead is a bit warmer.

It’s already feeling warmer here in the 20’s.  This week’s promising 30’s and 40’s.

Plus, if you pay attention, you’ll notice that the days are getting longer. Every day is a little bit longer than the one before.  You’ll notice if you look for it.

It’s a good week to think about relativity, eh?

xoxo, d

P.S. Thank you to Netflix for automatically starting the next episode.  That’s a really great feature that makes my quality of life better.  Or worse.  Not sure which.

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5 comments

  1. Such an answer is deserving of an ‘in response’ answer. 🙂

    1. Kardashians. I have thought many times of just writing about the Kardashians. I think they’re fascinating. Not always in a good way, but often in a good way. Often enough for people who work an honest day and support themselves plus a bunch of other people. I find lessons and eye-opening realizations in every Kardashian moment. Maybe it’s just because their life is slowed down. Maybe it’s because they’re slow (for folks who live fast). Or maybe it’s just because of the magnification of the lens. But now I want to write about them more.

    2. Our comedy backgrounds are similar. Comedy is amazing.

    3. When you draw, do you go into a zone? How much of what you’re listening to do you remember? I’m all over the map. Sometimes I hear everything. Sometimes I hear nothing. Like running a few miles with music. Sometimes you know every step and sometimes you can’t remember the run.

    4. Curiousity about your shift in thinking about mental illness. Curiosity about your mother’s ability to manage her depression. My family was well stocked with mental illness. On each side. My father’s mother was estranged from almost everyone because of her mental illness. She was also the funny one. Full of energy and a quick wit. She finally found medication in her 80’s. And then she discovered art. Her life was nothing but hard until her 80’s and now we all have collections of vases painted by her during years when she was finally able to be less horrible than she’d been. Amazing.

    5. Low 40’s is pretty manageable. Although after menopause, everything feels ‘not that cold’ to me. Who knows. Everyone says you go back to being freezing after the menopause years, so I won’t gloat too much.

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      1. Such an essay is deserving of answer in long-form, the comments section will mercifully keep me properly in check. Or will it.
        1. Kardashians. I turned my teen daughter onto KUWTK. We watched it together for years. I LITERALLY enjoyed their day to day travails.
        2. Comedians (along with cartoons and comics) were my oxygen since I was a pre-teen. It stared with getting to watch SNL on cable late-night babysitting. At home was the opposite of comedy, gravity. IOW no cable. Steve, Klein, Cos, Woody, were my early guys. A murderers’ row of dysfunction there. Nowadays, I find the best comedians just happen to be women: Bamford, Kirkman, Silverman, Tina Fey. (Saw Kirkman last year, we will see Bamford in the Spring yay)
        3. when I draw, I listen to podcasts, or something metronomous and trance-inducing (like podcasts, sorry, redundancy there). Talk about a vocation where your mistakes and faults are brought out in sharp relief, and bite you in the ass
        4. My mother has suffered from depression for many years, which my sister and I have tried to be supportive towards, with varying degrees of success. I have fortunately been spared the worst of depressive thoughts – my sister and I throw ourselves into our respective work, that cure-all and enemy of restful sleep. That, and long-form conversations on podcasts, has brought about a shift in my thinking about mental illness.
        5. Here in Vancouver it is in the low 40s most of the winter. Interesting to hear how weather is different in other parts of the world?

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